Emergency funds and Adulting..

 So, I am advancing further in my pregnancy. I still can't believe it. 

A lot has happened, I am not in touch with people I thought were constant in my life. 

I am a mother now. A mother! I am aware of the babe. It took me a while to understand and accept. No matter what the colour or gender. I will help him/her to the best of my abilities. I just want the baby to be healthy. There is also a need to think about the future finances. Most importantly, it is about the baby's future. 

Start looking for the videos, look into stocks, and passive income most importantly. A 2nd income would be a great help. I have my dreams too, it starts with being able to learn driving. Regarding passive income, my Idea is to hone my skills. So that I can make something that is sellable. I would like to be strong and healthy too. 

I would also like to be a part of a community that is focused on having a growth mindset. There is also an issue. 

This is about wants and needs. Let me talk about myself. 

Till last year, I was in Gurgaon. Leading with a high sales target and wondering if I will ever get there. 

Now I am a mother and a wife. Working as an assistant manager at a remote location. The place is peaceful and pretty. Although weather leaves a lot to have a desire for. 

Lately, I am thinking is it okay, that I am not earning in double figures. Not the brightest kid in the block. Not doing anything, one can be proud of. But somehow I am okay.  There is nothing I lack in terms of needs. I have a good husband and non-problematic in-laws. It's fine really. 

Come to think of it, it's always been this case. I have lived my life in a way that no one can frown upon, but it's not something one can be jealous of. I guess its okay. But I don't feel fulfilled, I need to find something that is totally mine. I don't care about how others view it. As long as I feel like there is something special. It would suffice. I would love to have a library in a peaceful place. A place where I can sell craft supplies. it would be nice. 

I have a dream of having my tiny space in this big world. A place which will truly be mine, I would turn into my reflection. Like one look would tell you what my soul looks like and leave it behind. 

I like being safe and fulfilled. There is a desire and need to see this wonderous space. 

This world is in pain, wars are happening, but life must go on. I would like to paint my little corner with the brightest colour. 

Love 

Ekta