Bent in the road ?

 Hi ! 

It's been hell of the months isn't it? 

Iam blogging  from my phone,its been tough. I am getting anxious, I can't sleep ,i get nightmares.

This too shall pass? will it ?? Hatred,negativity,anxiety are becoming my all time companions 

How did this happen?

Let me start from the beginning. 

Around march we heard the news that a disease is spreading  in china ..I didn't think too much of it .As it won't be the first time ,this would happen,But it got worse ,the scary stats from Italy ,exhausted doctors was something I started waking up to.Suddenly sanitizers,masks starts disappearing from the market ,sold at 4 times high cost.

It was still not in India though,but we knew the moment  it comes to India it would be hell.It wasn't a wrong assumption, its been 6 months, we have been living in the constant fear,A single sneeze ,slight fever it scaring the hell out of me.

I never thought a day would come where I will loose my hair due to anxiety, but iam in pain;Mental pain. I can only imagine what it would be like for someone who was already dealing with these issues. The world is in chaos ...forest fire lasting  6 months..storms ..cyclones..war like situation in the country...communal riots ..hatred among different religions..indifference . Iam tired ,iam sad ..but i'am determined to come out of it .

It won't be same forever ,there are still some stories which warms my heart ..like actors Sonu wood giving their all to help,people coming for support ,there is some hope.We are creature who long for love ,acceptance and hope. We will make it .No matter how many adversaries comes,humanity will prevail,nature will forgive us..after all we are part of it .I may not live to see it..but I know it will be better.How I don't know..but as sadhguru said life and death are happening simultaneously..they coexist together. 

We are the bent of the road,we dont know what's ahead,but whatever's gonna happen;will happen anyway.I will deal with it one day at a time.

I can't believe it was possible to sum it all up..all the chaos...the noise and tear,but hey words do hold magic.

Yours Arranya